一直很想和大家分享这二十天的禁食祷告的经历。。。。起初， 我带着有点勉强的心态参加这二十天的禁食祷告。。心想极然已经答应了，我就必须为这个承诺付上责任。至到 xue er jie 给了个 briefting ， 我才开始认真了起来。。。。。这时， 我才领悟到是时候让我想一想我和上帝的关系了。。。。
一直以来做基督徒做的有点不干不愿。。。。。。我对自己有一定的要求。。。有时在想如果我不是基督徒的话，我就不用背起十字架。。。。不用传福音。。。我爱做什么就做什么。。。可是，当这样的想法冲击我时，心里又很矛盾。。。。
直到舅舅的葬礼，我感恩因为上帝让舅舅信主， 我更感恩的是上帝叫我再一次的认识生命和他救恩。禁食祷告让我安静自己。。。借着祷告我希望神将我的小信和软弱一一的挪 去 。。。。。一直一来我真的不喜欢传福音。。。我总觉得自己很软弱。。。自己没有一颗爱人灵魂 的心。。。。PD camp 让我看见了自己生命的异象。。。上帝很奇妙。。这二十天的禁食祷告，让我看见MMU 失丧的灵 魂 ，上帝给了我一颗怜悯人心。。。我开始看见周围朋友的需要，我开始喜爱传福音。。。和上帝有了更新的关系后，我对学业和 事奉的看法也有了很大的改变。。一向很崇洋的我， 开始爱上自己的国家。。爱上这片土地。。。开始学会了感恩的工课。。。。。。
真的很谢谢弟兄姐妹，谢谢你们无条件的接纳我。。。 感恩因为上帝让我在CCF 里面成长。。。
Xiao Yi Jing
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
wohoo! hehe..thanks for ur sharing to encourage us :D
I also sense that GOD is doing something after our 20 days fast and pray..slowly , slowly..
Lets hold the Cross tightly and dun let it go!:) Coz it is precious and it cost eternity..nothin is more expensive than this cross :P
yea yeechin.. thanks for ur sharing.. u r owez so true.. found myself getting luv u more n more.. really.. u r a wonderful sister.. and everytime thru ur sharing.. it again reminds me about how trustworthy our God is.. thankful for that.. thankful to have u in my life.. let's continue grow in Him.. luv u always *hug*
ya...indeed following HIM is a blessing...Shu Wan, thx 4 always there for me whenever i need any support n help..i thx God 4 always sending angels in my life....i do appreciate n love u as a sis in Christ.hugz:)
yeah, God helps me to see things (open my eyes) where we rarely notice or care about through this 20 days F&P. when sis Xue Er challenged me, I was like... wah, so chim leh. in the end, we did it together with God\o/ Thanks God for everything. few of us in the committee have a very clear message (vision) bout the F&P in the beginning, start planning and collecting the materials during sem break, prepare booklets, and finally 20 days F&P and prayer walk. may God gives us a pure heart & clean hands, be a generation to seek God face and love the people around us